09/02/2010 (Tuesday)
My ptptn loan is out while my parents sent me money too in the same time. Today i had wonderful lunch with egg, vegetables and chicken but no me paid because my friend borrow my printer and print so i used to ask him pay for it. Now no that worry no rice eat, or hungry. But i will try to save the cost and bring it to my short trip at Penang in this June holiday.
Babe, i don't know what are you thinking and what the matters or problem you are facing now. I feel you just keep in your mind and no telling out. Even i can't help you but i can shared with you and be your listener.
Nowadays you seem like quiet and nothing to chat with me, or you no wish to say out. I can't feel your love honestly. I just feel i am the last person in your mind, Before sleep just looking me or i looking you.
What i feel just a piece of sadness and hurt flying in my hearts. I guess you wont know if i no telling you what i am facing my problem now. I just no wish to tell out and if you can find out my problems that's mean you really caring me .I am waiting.
1st February 2010 (Monday)
Is been three days i didn't eat rice. Until today i spent rm 1 and bought my lunch a empty fried rice. My loan maybe this Friday 12th February out i ask the staff rather than ask my friend that simply guess and they don't even know also. Last Friday my parents went to bank and post me the money but the draw machine is unavailable. My mum said next time and i keep on waiting until today i can't suffer without eating rice and don't want to borrow money from my friend. Last 2 week i just borrow rm 50 but finish using and left RM 3.
Mostly afternoon i eat rice and night cook Maggie mi while weekend morning biscuits + hot drinks while night Maggie mi + hot drinks. My bank also no money. So morning just now i called my parents. At night my mum call me and said my dad no going out because the road is jam. She ask have my dinner yet?i said no money,she ask me don't always use to call and must save my money and don't simply use , while keep some for my eat.I cut off the phone, I really feel upset and my tears out she said me like that since i really save my money and no rice to eat. After i went to toilet wash my face a while then back to my room and switch back the phone because i sad and switch off it.
Tonight got a small meeting with the warden at 9.00pm. My parents call me again but i am unable to pick up the phone but i got received the text.Until i at my room my mum call me again and said the bank just accept rm 150 and another rm 50 reject and ask me to save the money.