Moment of silent

1st --27 Aug (memory I couldn’t forget it at all)

I just knew a girl from net,she was from penang,we chat a lot in mirc and slowly-slowly don’t know why we chat and just suddenly got feeling among each other…


The 1st weeks,I still remember,when we just became couple.i keep on doing something wrong that make her get hurt,sad and unhappy,we always argue…this is because I am kinda misunderstood her or jealous because she knowing a lot of guy in mirc and she always busy and reply me quite slow..maybe I am a kind of paranoid guy...she is honestly,tell me everything,but sometimes I not really believe her.This is because of I always misunderstanding her that is what i think “gua”


Afterthat,my heart oso getting hurt n sad,keep on thinking her all the time,and finally we became good already..although the period day beween us is quite short,but I am happy enough wif her,we shared a lot of things and problems…but something I can`t get what she mean because the time we contact together not suit lo..at morning I study while she sleep and afternoon I free she started to work,but during her work time,she stil sms me.Untill the night after she came back from work,I waiting her sms to reply me because she need take supper and also bath,so I just keep waiting her sms and sometimes ,I sms her till 2am or online chatting wif her but tomorrow I got school,5.20 am need to waked up…but this is the way I spent my time wifth her so that we got much more time to get closest and love and care each other deeply..


At the same time my result is dropping because I keep thinking of her and oso my planning for 2nd trial fail,it cause me no mood to study, just wan online lo..she didn`t do anything wrong to me,,just I always feel sorry to her because she did give me a lot of chances and I still the same, maybe I don`t know how to appreciate it…I think at the same time I think i couldn’t put my love with my studies at the same time,that`s is only one way for me to go..

Finally reach the day,she had sms me and told me i think...we should stop contacting each other..until after ur exam only..we decide ok...sometimes i reali think we don understand each other..im sorry,and I don`t know what the meaning at 1st till I ask my frends,just I get the meaning lo..but I still no reply her sms,I don`t know what should I reply to her and at night she did call me again ,I still no pick her call because I don`t know how I going to talk wif her,till lately I sms her,she just call me again,she no say want
break with me but she give me da clue and I can get her meaning….the next day,we still contact but very less,just sms as friend..sometimes she reply me lately or no reply my sms,I got a feel like she try to avoid me…but after break,I no sad don`t know why,I just feel like very ‘sayang’ I lost my chance to be with her to be long term relationship..maybe my ‘STPM’ also a hint of it eh..nevermind la,it`s is pass already but sometimes I can`t forget her,I try but I getting hurt and I feel like I still got feel on her,sigh,I don`t know what to do at the moment,a lot of my net friends ask me better you stop contact her just concentrate on your studies 1st.hopefully I wish I can do my best in my ‘STPM’ examination 1st and still can keep in touch with her after my exam … \(^_^)/